Ralphie Cutie

She is the most adorable cat ever!!!!! She is Beautiful, playful, affectionate, lovely, active and loves to be stroked. I get so attached to animals, if you haven't noticed it!!! lol I am so gonna miss her :( Yes, we have to give her because I am pregnant. Cats can give a disease that would be fatal for baby. So... we will give her to a lovely family who will take good care of her. Oh man, I'm already in tears!!! :( Anyways, I love that little ball of hair and will miss her lots and lots. Okay enough rambling! She will be very happy there, and that's all that matters, right?

Home Sweet Home

My boy Baxter = *happiness*

Thursday love?

So I've been uber slack. I didn't post my *wednesday love* and I didn't even take a picture of my *wednesday love*! It is a simple thing this week though. That is, I'm home. Whoopar! I travelled back yesterday from Swansea. Home sweet home, amongst the excessive sirens, smog and pollution, yummy Baxter, and my bed.

It is definitely love.

*Wednesday Love*

*TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED?*

Have you ever thought about what it'd be like with NO electricity or NO water? The people here know what it' s like to live without those things. Some of them drink the water from the river and even wash themselves in it! They don't know what it's like to have a "nice" kitchen or even have a "nice" house. There are so many electricity cuts here. It's so frustrating at time. I realized that I never thought about not having electricity before I came to this little jungle town. It was as if I was so used to having it that I never thought about it. But today. Well, today, I am thankful. Thankful for water. Thankful for the things that I used to take for granted in the civilized world. I have been thankful for shopping malls. They don't have that over here. They don't have any clothes shops. Nope. None of that. So, I am learning to be thankful and not take things for granted. I am thankful for the food that I have everyday. Thankful for having a little clean wood house to live in. Thankful for light. For electricity when we have it. I guess we always realize what we do have when those things are taken away from us.

I've been thinking about that for a while now, and I thought that I'd share that with you. Sending you a warm hello for the South Amercia jungle ;)
*Happy Wednesday Love* :) x

What do you mean?

Isn't she darling? YES SHE IS! My newest love. So here's the thing. She needs a name. I'm incapable of choosing one. I love names, I love their meanings mostly. I was certain one day I would name my child if it was a boy, Heath. I later found out that name means wasteland. That's terrible isn't it?

a) Shirley - 'Bright Meadow'

b) Betty - 'God is my oath'

c) DeeDee - doesn't really have a meaning ha.

So those are them. VOTE PEOPLE!

*wednesday love*

*Postal Wednesday love* from my friend Flora. Post always cheers up a stressful day :o)

*Wednesday Love*

Her name is Ralphie. Chris found her in the rain and mod. He couldn't resist... he had to bring her home with him. So, we've adopted her. She is every so cute. People around here don't like cats. I don't quite know why, but they just don't. That would explain why there aren't many cats around!!! And when you see a few, well, they don't belong to anyone. So sad. :( But little Ralphie is safe, loved and warm. She seems to really enjoy her new home. She is so playful. I am not sure how old she is, but I'd say 5 or 6 months old. How could someone not love a tiny little cute kitten like her? It's just impossible not to love her!!!! lol
I know that it's a strange *wednesday love* but I really wanted to introduce her. She is now a part of the family. :)

Today, I am loving the cool breeze, thinking about the day, craving for apple cinnamon herbal tea and missing Starbucks coffee.

Happy *Wednesday Love* to ya'll x

*Got it*

Yes, I did!!! I got 2 internet connections today on my hubby's laptop. It seems like the internet settings on my laptop aren't right. I will have to check them out when I get back to Kourou.

Just popping in to say hello. I am so sorry I couldn't post sooner, but it seems that I can now get in the internet. I would love to post my *Wednesday love* but they are on my computer. So it will have to wait until April 8th. Not too long though. From now on, I will download the pictures on my hubby's laptop :)

I have been doing well. Busy. Everyday. It's been fun. Some days very tiring. Sometimes I feel lonely. But it's rewarding to be here when I see the results. I have been missing many things, many people, my dear beautiful friend Rhi. It's not easy to live so far away. Baby is doing well and growing in my tummy. What an amazing miracle. I got to hear his/her little heart last week. It was so emotional. I so look forward to meeting him/her.

Well, I will post my *Wednesday Love* tomorrow with picture and everything.

See you then x

Celebrate your mums

So it is Mothers day. Yay for mothers. This is the card I made for mine, it is off both me and my yummy brother Baxter. Featured there on the front of the card ;)

Celebrate your Mothers today ladies. They do the hardest job <3

*wednesday love*

Index card love. Turned into little cards to send
out as random happy post.


I love this wednesday. I love this wednesday because I handed my essays in! Which means they are done and over and finished! Which also means I got to make pretties all.day.long. So my *wednesday love* is in two parts, firstly handing essays in, and secondly my own form of therapy. Making stuff!

I am missing Flora's *wednesday love*. I am sad that she can't get connected, and that it looks like this is majorly my blog. But I know that she will be getting broadband soon, so I just have to hang on till then. I still miss her.

Some reasons why...

There are alot of reasons I do what I do. By that I mean make "stuff". I'm always making stuff, whether it's last minute flowers as wrapping accessories or paperbag journals for friends and customers. I like to make things pretty. Glow in the dark skeletons, my boiler, photos, bags, candles. If it doesn't move, i'll attach ribbon and buttons in abundance. This is therapy for me. It keeps my hands active and my brain focused. I create little bits of beauty in a world that is messy and ugly alot of the time. My world became excruciatingly ugly three years ago. On the 26th April 2004 my youngest brother died, unexpectedly, unfairly, messily, and at the hands of others. I dealt, and still am dealing with this in different ways, but one of those ways was journalling, and making, and creating. In the first months after I would spend hours painting canvases, creating journal entries and making cards. I'm pretty sure some of the journalling we do offline will be shared over the months that me and flo blog our other "stuff".

The emotional stuff. The stuff we all carry with us, as humans, as girls, as women.

One of the other reasons I make "stuff" is because I choose to believe this...

and let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us, And establish the work of our hands for us; Yes, establish the work of our hands. - Psalm 90.17

I don't think the world is all that hot most days, and I question God alot, so if I can make beauty in that? Then it makes things kinda easier. Sometimes.

*wednesday love*

Today was a busy day. I'm a week away from two essay deadlines, neither of which I have done. Eek! I'll get there i'm sure. I did my first student guide job today aswell, which was incrediably tiring. Once taking a bunch of prospective students round the campus, then second time taking some parents. Answering all types of questions, "do you do 40 hours of study a week?" HA. Do I heck! I'm just about scraping 6! Of course that's not the answer I gave them ;)

But amongst all this walking, my blue suede shoes remained strong. Walking through the park on the way home, I just felt pleased to be wearing them. Bit of a funny *wednesday love*? Yes. Especially compared to Flo's inner beauty reminder. But, hey. I struggle to find meaning within the mundane most days. A very big "What is the point" question hangs over what feels like alot of my life, so if I can find beauty in walking through the park in my blue suede shoes, who is to stop me?

Share yours with me. I've had some lovey emails and comments off people, and I love to check out new blogs always!

Early *Wednesday Love*

I am early again because I am living this afternoon to go back to Maripa Soula for another 3 weeks. I will be back on the 26th March.

It's been a while since I have been thinking about true beauty. I mean, the media tell us that beauty is the appearance of our body. The slimmer we are, the prettier we look. Our hair, our makeup, our clothes... it seems like everything is surrounded by superficial things. It can be so hard for me to focus again and think that real beauty isn't what they say it is. Real beauty isn't based on these things. It's as if some woman are lucky to be beautiful and others... well, aren't. What a lie. I have discovered that beauty is within. If we are beautiful on the inside, then the real beauty will shine through. Don't get me wrong, I am not against makeup or anything like that. I am just so mad at so many people that tell woman that they should be "that" way to be beautiful. That's wrong. A lie. They distort beauty.
I have something that Rhi made for me that I keep right next to my mirror in my bathroom. It reminds me the truth every morning. It's so refreshing. Yes, real beauty reigns within!