blue blue eyes

"those troubled blue blue eyes

they say so much

without

breathing a word."

- gary nock

O.V.E.R.whelmed!

truly, i feel overwhelmed! these shoes are so flippin amazingly... sexy, gorgeous, trendy, fashion and love.

now it is my turn to say "everyone, without exception, should get a rhirhi!

thank you lovely. i am speechless.

not only you are beautiful, but you make me beautiful :)

love you xxxxx

Beauty in true friendships

Dear Rhi,
There are so many things that I have been thinking about. Lots of things that have been coming back up to the surface within me. Things that were crushed deep down. Things that I wanted to forget. Never go back to.
I never had great experiences in my life when it came to friendships. School was a disaster. Being a 'pastor's daughter' sure didn't help. And to everyone, it was a shame to be around me. I had to learn to protect myself from being hurt over and over. It was a hard time. But I came out of it... stronger. Well, I thought so until today.
I have to work on it. No matter how painful it is to face. Because the past always seems to catch up at some point. The hurts. The bad memories. The bad experiences.
In the midst of all that, I am glad I met you. Because you taught me that real friendship exists. That forgiveness and grace are to be given to others. You truly do enrich my life. And no matter how far we are from each other, I sure feel like I have found in you a real friend. a soul sister.
So. Thank you.
For being you. And for having me as a friend.
Love xxxx

hello september

Autumn has arrived, floflo.

For me at least. Not so much for you!

I got to make some pages with a new shop Danielle Thompson is opening. She asked me to make some digital stuff for her. You can see all the pages that all the artists made here :)

autumn is here!

may September be like summer. shinny, warm and very sunny. may you wear your summery clothes and your flip flops. may you take lots of pictures of the sun. and may you walk through those beautiful flashy green grass field with Sid. may you know that i love you. for even though we are miles away, we still are soul sisters. forever.

*blogger isn't allowing me to upload the picture i took for you. and so. my thurday love is only made of words.*

lofty thoughts...

I'm bringing back the *wednesday love*
xoxo

Flicker

Flicker little light shine,

Flicker true and strong,

Flicker little wonder,

in all the dark times to come.

Be the prayer in the silence,

the hope in the deep black night,

Be the grace that keeps me,

and peace that leads me on.

Jotted down for Flo, 09.08.08

a colorful mess

Dear Rhian,

It is getting late, but I don't care. My mind seems to be way too preoccupied to wanna switch off. Tonight, I decided to take my paint again. And create, express, talk in a painting way whatever was going through my mind.

I don't consider myself as an "great artist". I don't believe in competition when it comes to art. I don't think art should be a competition in the first place. I think everyone should be true to themselves when they make whatever they create. And not make something with the motivation of showing the world how great they are. Or how better they are from the other - even if the competition is done in a friendly way. Many artists have become that.

This is probably why I love your art so much. You way of expressing yourself. Because you make it for you. I love your honesty. Your boldness. Because no matter what the other person might think, you still make. And you still create.

This is why. You're my favorite.

You see. These past few days have changed me a little more. life is so fragile. And because life only holds to a breath, I want to live everyday as if it was my last. And if today is my last, then I want the world to know that they should have you as a friend. For you have enriched my life. And I know that you enrich many lives around the globe.

I was thinking of you today.

I miss you.

Good night - because you, hopefully, are sleeping.

for flo

this is an ancient celtic prayer, flo.
one that gets me through most days :)

As the rain hides the stars,
as the autumn mist hides the hills,
as the clouds veil the blue of the sky,
so the dark happenings of my lot
hide the shining of your face from me.
Yet, if I may hold your hand
in the darkness, it is enough,
Since I know that
though I may stumble in my going,
You do not fall.

love you x

photographs and memories

lovely :)

i know you're still there...

... but i miss you. and so. i take pictures thinking about you. self portrait and feet. loving you my dear. xxx

ON TV

here you are my friend. looking as beautiful as ever. and glowing away a beautiful shinny n' sparkly glow. i love you.

happy travels

hopefully by the time you read this you will be home :)
and this picture has nothing to do with my post. i just thought you might not have seen it if you don't check my flickr :)
love <3

holding hands

frienship is so sacred. it's like giving a part of yourself to someone. it's all about honesty, transparency, grace, forgiveness, integrity, faithfulness and above all: letting the other one 'be'.
a close friend emailed me asking if i made lots of friends over my side of the world. and. i started thinking.
it didn't get far when i realized how few they were. i'm not a "popular" girl. i'm not that 'girl' everyone will want to be around - maybe cause i might be too french for them. i don't have many friends but i rather have a few precious rare jewels than having many hypocrite b&?&es!
i am so careful at choosing my friends. i am not scared of trusting someone. but i'm not stupid. and want to choose them wisely.
i made many mistakes in the past. learned from them. cried. and now, i'm up again. in many ways, stronger. and i'm overwhelmed by the grace and forgiveness one gave me when she could've turned her back on me. this is why i know that true friendship is also about new chances. to remain. to keep loving. keep forgiving. and being.

this is for you my dear. because with everything within me, i cherish our friendship. and look forward to those years to come as we grow older. and. i can picture ourselves sitting down in a field filled with a flashy green grass, having tea and cupcakes!
and. look at me. i still have my teeth! and they're not fake!

a wednesday big love

dear lovely - yes i am talking to you - the crazy fun rocking you!

there is something about toes. i love. i really do. you might think i am not normal. well. that probably is because i am not. and that's ok. i accepted that fact a long time ago. normal is boring anyways. so. i might just enjoy being. me.

it's raining again today. i am not complaining. i am thanking the heavens for it. it's cool. there is that soft breeze going through the house right now and it inspires me. totally. completely.

my son's been having fun destroying everything that is on his path! literally. having 2 eyes at the back of my head is becoming more than handy. the only problem is: 'i don't have 2 eyes at the back of my head'. so. you can imagine the state of my house. actually. no you can't. it is worse than worse. that's ok. i've been prepared psychologically. well. i think so anyways?! and, i am accepting the fact that prepare or not prepared, i am thrown into the mad discovery mess of a baby's world. it is so much fun. very interesting. and extremely tiring.

so. on that note, i am going. going to bake, tidy, play and work.

happy wednesday to you my lovelyhead. i am thinking of you as you're going to America and spend some good times with your loves. you deserve to go there. so. enjoy - every day, minute and seconds. i will be here thinking of you, as always.

me xxxx